This past weekend I took a trip with my husband. We had several hours in the car to chat and just be together, one of our favorite parts of our road trips.
We did wind up talking about the subject of missionaries at one point, a subject that doesn’t sit well with my guy. I expressed my own thoughts carefully, then left the topic alone.
But in my thoughts I was praying and talking to God about it, you can be sure of that. I told He had a difficult task on his hands with my hubby because he is one tough nut to crack.
Then I “heard” a thought not my own. “I made him.”
Whoa…I sat there “thoughtless” for a few moments just letting that truth sink in deep. I know that’s obvious, but when again, as I’ve said before, when God interjects a thought into my head like that, it hits like a arrow into the target of my heart.
God reminded me that he created my husband and made him exactly as he is. The ramifications of that can make you dizzy, especially when you ask the next logical question, “Why make him with a brain so logical that he chooses not to believe in God?”
But that brings us back to the free will issue, doesn’t it? God is a gentlemen is the truest sense and desires that we willingly come to love him, not by force. To have made my sweet hubby with the intention that he would choose God would be to breach that characteristic that is so very much God.
I know, mind-boggling. It’s gets better though. As I contemplate (and deeply appreciated) this truth that God revealed to me, He showed me another step in this revelation.
As God made my husband uniquely to be who he is, every person I meet, believer or not, was made with that same intention.
The one who cuts me off in traffic.
The one who treats me rudely at the grocery store.
The one who uses foul language as if it were desirable vocabulary.
The ones who seem to go through this life without care of how they’re actions affect others.
Every single person I will ever meet or see in my lifetime…
It’s again part of that eternal mindset, one that’s so difficult to keep in the harries, inconveniences, and injustices that are part of our everyday world.
I know I struggle with it. Very much so. And how like our God to use my husband to show me this weakness in myself and to show me His truth and desire that I love not just my unbelieving spouse unconditionally, but all who walk into my sphere of “seeing.”
God is asking me to see beyond my small, little world. To pray for all of them, “Lord, open their eyes so they can see You.”
Not an easy task and one I know I’m incapable of without His help, without Christ working in me to be the one others truly see.
This all started when I asked God to open my eyes and help me see what He wants me to see. It’s a prayer that should come with the warning, “be prepared.” God wants the lost to be seen. And He wants to share the ache He holds for them.
So, pray this prayer because you truly want to see. Then get ready for God to rock your world.
Praying and believing,
Dineen
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