While reading a devotional yesterday, the writer highlighted Habakkuk 3:19. I hunted down this verse in my own Bible, then proceeded to write it on an index card.
“The Sovereign Lord is my strength;
He makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
He enables me to go on the heights.”
I don’t know about you, but I need this reminder right now. I have a tendency to leave God’s strength and start working on my own very limited reservoir. Inevitably, I run out, and right now, I don’t need that to happen.
This race takes perseverance. Big time. Right now God seems to be calling me to stay close to my husband’s side. To support, to encourage, and to uphold. Even I’m amazed at how much patience I have and how well I’m managing to hold my tongue. Simply said, God’s giving me exactly what I need at the moment to fulfill the role he’s set before me.
I’m walking a fine line at the moment. One turn to the left or to the right could send me out of God’s will and spiraling into the chaos waiting to gobble me up and take my peace away. In this particular situation, I’ve had to seek God’s guidance daily, more to keep from jumping ahead of him than anything else. I don’t want to get in the way of what he’s doing with with my dear husband, and there’s no clear right or wrong direction here. God is the only compass I have at the moment.
What amazes me even more is the peace I have in all this. The more I’ve aligned myself with my husband, the closer my husband has drawn to me. God is showing me that by doing this his way, I honor and respect not only my husband, but him as well. And let me tell you, nothing is more exciting and invigorating and peaceful than being obedient to God’s will.
Already he’s shown me he’s there, working to take care of things. He’s rewarded my obedience in such a way as to please my husband as well, thus confirming even more my role as help meet (Gen. 2:18).
To serve God in such this way has filled me with a deep sense of what’s “right.” I don’t know if that makes sense, but I can’t completely put it into words. It’s like knowing without any doubts that you are exactly where you’re supposed to be.
I can’t take credit for any of it. I’m not capable of this kind of thing. This is 100% God moving in me, his tool, to bring about his will.
And I can think of no better place to be.
Praying and believing,
Dineen
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