So, this is a difficult post for me to write. However, I’m
following the Lord’s lead as there must be one other person, in addition to me,
who needs this word.
My home church where I have served and worshiped for 12
years is teetering on the precipice of a split. And I am grieved deeply in my spirit over this. The
thoughts of people whom I love possibly now hating another person in our church stabs my
heart in searing pain.
Grief has sat heavily on me now for several days as I have
prayed and ponder over the people of God. So this morning as I left for an early walk in the frosty wilderness, I was contemplating our church. I was carrying
the heartbreak on my soul.
I began walking and noticed the geese feeding in the field.
Such beauty. And as I turned to head down a different road, that is when all of it hit
me. The full spectrum of grief I’ve been carrying over this split came upon me
with such a force that I started to bawl. I full on cried, out loud, while
walking by the horse pasture. Big heaving sobs complete with snot bubbles and
tears dropping from my cheeks.
As I cried, I prayed, “O Lord, I am so sorry. I am so sorry
this is happening to your people. I am so sorry.”
I walked a little further, gathering myself down to sniffles
and nose wipes and it was at that point, in that moment, I thought of Paul and
how he grieved over the people of Israel. And I said to God the same thing Paul
said and in that moment and I was genuinely sincere, “Lord, I would die to save
the unity of these people.”
And out of the blue I heard God immediately respond, “Lynn, My
Son already died to save their unity.”
Full on bawling again.
“O, Lord, I am so sorry. Jesus died for our unity.” At this
point, it’s complete blubbering.
Through my tears God said to me, “Unity in my people is
vastly important. It is in this corporate environment that my power is
amplified. Miracles, healings, restoration happens. Remember the scripture,
where two or more are gather, there I am also? Well, it’s in the united hearts
and souls which brings my Kingdom power to earth and hinders the devil. That is
why the enemy works so hard to destroy believers who unite to serve Me.
Then I felt the Lord calm my spirit and speak directly to me
again, “Lynn, you keep your eyes on me. You are to stay so intensely focused on
me that you can’t be distracted by the dialogs and discontent happening around
you.” And God went on, “Lynn, don’t you ever lose perspective that any ministry
given to an individual to lead, including a church, has been given by Me.
“You must hold your own ministry very loosely. There will
come a day, possibly even as early as tomorrow that I will demand the surrender
of your ministry. This ministry that you started is not your empire. This
ministry is and always has been Mine. There will be a day when a younger woman
will come along and she will take the reins and you must step away. You may
lose the leadership of your ministry through deception or it could even be
stolen from you. But, you are not to fight but to depart with all the dignity
and honor of which I have bestowed to you.”
“Lynn, and if you never serve Me again in any public manner,
then you MUST KNOW that I AM all you need.”
“I Am the Great I Am. I will always take care of you.”
I finished my walk today with understanding and yet still
with a broken heart.
However, I am firm in my commitment to hold this ministry in which the Lord allows me to serve
with a very lose grip.
And one thing I know that is for certain. Dineen and I WILL ALWAYS BE all about what we are “FOR” in
this ministry and not what we are against. And what is it that we are “for” you
ask? The two things that matter the most to God.
Thank you for allowing Dineen and I to serve you. We love
you more than mere humble words can say. And for those of you who live with
unbelieving husbands or wives, a church split is devastating to their salvation. It
affirms every lie they been told about church, faith and God. So armor up my
friends because the enemy is prowling and the wounded and bleeding are falling
everywhere.
But, we serve THE GREAT I AM.
So enemy, you are hereby put on notice……. Expect some
serious butt kickin’.
We are going to step into the realms of the Spiritual
battles in January. I hope you plan to be part of it because we are literally
going to terrorize the devil. Love you so much, Lynn
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