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An Anniversary; So Happy, So Melancholy

Take a look at these. I don’t think I have received red roses in a very long time. 12 perfect blooms.  As I am writing this it is Sunday evening…

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Take a look at these. I don’t think I have received red roses in a very long time. 12 perfect blooms. 

As I am writing this it is Sunday evening and we celebrated our 18th wedding anniversary today. We went out to dinner last night and toasted our life together. My husband told me how very happy he is with his life with me, his zany wife and how I make him laugh and am a great wife and mother. 

I have such a great guy so please don’t think terrible of me but, today, Sunday, I still went to church alone. I had one of THOSE moments where I spotted another young couple seated in the worship center, holding hands while raising hands in worship. For a tiny moment I said, “God, I want that so badly. What happened?” 

I am trying to understand all that transpired in the past year. My husband experienced God and answered prayer through our eleven-month unemployment. I am convinced he knows that God looked after us. Heknows He provided for us in amazing absolutely, miraculous ways and finally gave my man the perfect job. 

I came home from church. He met me at the door. Look intently into my eyes, which freaked me out. He never does this. Grabbed my face and kissed me soundly. “Happy Anniversary. I love you.” 

I am soooo happy and I am soooo melancholy. 

What I MUST remember is– I have hope. I could not live without hope. So, after 18 years I will not give up. I remember stories like Cate, who left a comment here at SUM on Tuesday. Her story is enough to give all of us hope. I live in hope. I know that God could call me to live an entire lifetime married to an unbeliever. I would do it for Jesus because I know what really matters. It’s Jesus and our eternity. He is using my life living with an unbeliever to serve His purposes. Need I know more? 

I believe my Jesus will one day bring my unbeliever home. It may not be until our 25th wedding anniversary or longer but I will never give up hope.
So for today, “Happy anniversary sweetie. I love you more every day.” 

I love because Christ first loved me. 

Be blessed, Lynn

Also, please hop over to Laced With Grace for Dineen's Devotion, Contemplating Peace and if you missed mine on Friday, God Loves Mylar Balloons, take a read. It is an amazing story of the supernatural.

Have a blessed week. Now take one minute and tell me why you have hope for your particular struggle. Hugs, Lynn

Comments

20 responses

  1. Tami Boesiger Avatar
    Tami Boesiger

    He is using my life living with an unbeliever to serve His purposes. Need I know more?
    Powerful statement, my friend. Amen.

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  2. Bridget Avatar
    Bridget

    I still have hope in my Saviour because He is so good to me even though I do not deserve it.
    Song of Solomon 1:2 (King James Version)
    2Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth: for thy love is better than wine.

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  3. e-Mom Avatar
    e-Mom

    Congratulations! Happy 18th Anniversary, Lynn. Twinkling with your joy, but suffering in your pain.
    Enjoy your roses–he picked YOU, the perfect wife for him.
    Love you! :~D

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  4. Jeannie Avatar
    Jeannie

    How wonderful you celebrated your 18th anniversay and at the same time feel the pains of your heart… but ya know it is just as you stated we live in Hope and not give up because we do not know what the future holds for our loved ones, other than there is a purpose as to why we are still with them…. living our life before the Lord bringing their souls before the Thrown always asking the Lord to woo their hearts… But have you noticed how much this has brought us to the Lord more… Who is to say that if we had a already a believing husband that we would do this much yearning?

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  5. kathy Avatar
    kathy

    Let God be God… and if it is your heart’s desire he will woo you husband to his side..All in his perfect timing…
    Your story made me pause… I had just celebrated a precious date with my husband of 8 years.. He said he loved me more than when we first met. Chris told me, that I was a great wife and perfect mother for our girls, ages 2, 4, and 6.. 3 days later he was in a plane crash and God took him home………That was 12 years ago. I lost my husband and best friend that day… So please ladies take time to enjoy that husband of yours…. God is incontrol and he just wants us to SIMPLE TRUST him.. When we fret that is the enemy trying to steal our joy……..peace and hugs to you all. kathy

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  6. Lynn Avatar
    Lynn

    Wow Kathy, I don't have words to say…. I am
    sooo sorry for your loss. But THANK YOU for your
    vulnerability and reminding us what rich blessings
    we have right now in our husbands and how we can
    only trust in Jesus and to love Him and our man. I
    am so humbled. Hugging you my friend. Thank you.
    Lynn

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  7. Dineen Miller Avatar
    Dineen Miller

    Wow! Kathy is so right! Every time my hubby
    walks out the door, I kiss and hug him, then I
    watch him leave. You just never know. I do that
    with my girls too. My thought just this
    morning…we need to enjoy and appreciate our men now, whether they believe or not. 🙂

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  8. Barbara Avatar
    Barbara

    Oh Lynn…I am so there with you….how you can feel so happy and content…and yet so sad and incomplete all at the same time. God has blessed us with so much….a love that lasts and men that are morally good…we have to believe…we have to have hope……..that day is coming…and yes it may take a while (we are 29 and counting)…but it is not over yet……..AFTER ALL….THESE ARE THE DAYS OF ELIJAH…..THE DRY BONES BECOMING AS FLESH…..I still believe and I confess it over our husbands…..THIS IS THE YEAR OF JUBILEE!
    LOVE YOU MUCH……REACHING OUT TO HUG YOU AND WE WALK THIS WALK…..WHERE TWO OR MORE AGREE AS TOUCHING ANYTHING….ANYTHING….ANYTHING….AND WE AGREE…..

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  9. Lynn Avatar
    Lynn

    Barbara
    Amen…. I AM IN AGREEMENT…. ANYTHING, ANYTHING
    IS POSSIBLE WITH OUR GOD.

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  10. Iris Avatar
    Iris

    Happy belated anniversary, Lynn.
    God is working in the life of your beloved. Thankfully He has giving you the hope to hold on to. Keep faithfully praying for your beloved, God will do the rest.
    PS: great shot of the roses, Lynn.

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  11. Tina W Avatar
    Tina W

    First of all, Happy Anniversary! I know lately it feels like I am hanging off the edge of a cliff and the only thing that is keeping me from falling is the rope I’m hanging on to. But, when I look at that rope, I see it is made up of the promises of God and it (He) will never let me fall. I just continue to cling to the Scripture that says “It is NOT His will that ANY should perish” and that includes my husband. When everything else is crumbling, I have to believe in what God says.
    Hugs,
    Tina

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  12. Denise Avatar
    Denise

    Happy Anniversary sweetie.

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  13. stacy Avatar
    stacy

    Why do I have hope? Because Jesus says, “Everything is possible for him who believes.” (Mark 9:23b)

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  14. marriage philippines Avatar
    marriage philippines

    This must be a perfect wedding floral in a history,i like the arrangement and its obvious on the post that they do this with full of effort. Congratulations!
    misty

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  15. Nicole Neri Avatar
    Nicole Neri

    Very vulnerable, and raw. You are such an encourager – Thank you!!!! “Let us run with perseverance the road marked out for us.” I want God to keep working on my heart like He has been yours – You are obviously madly in love with your hubby – but never settling for less than %100 life changing salvation!!! Living in the tension – Lord continue to pour yourself into Lynn!!!

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  16. Helen Avatar
    Helen

    Lynn, you are very blessed to be married to someone who loves you so. I’ve known several friends married to professing Christians who are mistreated and lonely. Having a great husband is a priceless gift.
    Happy Anniversary.

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  17. Cindi Avatar
    Cindi

    Total surrender, humility and humbleness. Thank you, Kathy, just how precious every minute is to love and cherish the families and (husbands) that God has chosen for us. I am resting in the peace that God has showed me this last year, just how wonderful my husband is. God has sanctified him and put me together with him for His glory. God is growing all of us wives to be the special, noble, faithful help-meets that HE fashioned just for our special men. Honor Him by respecting them! Obey God’s commands regarding and concerning you, and your Husband will just come along side. It works! Live your lives for the Lord!!
    Love you Lynn and Congrats!
    Cindi

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  18. Mary Avatar
    Mary

    This looks to be like a wonderfully encouraging site … Congratulations on your marriage..my 18th wedding anniversary is approaching April 18

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  19. Reegz Avatar
    Reegz

    Hi Lynn,
    God is so gracious to us isn’t He? Just when we need, He’s there. Thanks for sharing. Can’t wait to meet you by the tree of life. :o)

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  20. Kim Avatar
    Kim

    Hi Lynn…
    This was my first time reading your blog. I’m a newlywed. Going on a year. God is my passion. Everything I do is for the Lord. My husband on the otherhand, not so much. I often wonder if I had made a mistake. Your blog has given me such encouragement to press on! I know God put me in this chair at this computer and on this blog today for a reason. I now know there is no giving up, there’s HOPE! With GOD, ALL things are possible! Thank you so much for that little reminder!

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