You are not alone
I felt alone in my struggle in the early years. Attending church by my self was painful. Bitterness would rear its head on a Sunday morning when I left the house for church without my husband. Habitually, this feeling would erupt into a fight either before or after church.
I also found that nagging my husband to attend with me would cause numerous heartaches for us both. When I would manipulate him to attend, I was so stressed out about how he was experiencing church that I lost out on what the Lord had to offer me. I stopped asking and he attends when he wants now. We are free to receive the word of God in a way to benefit the both of us. As a side note he now attends more often than when I would nag.
I overcame my sensitivity to attending church alone through my prayer time. I also discovered church attendance created a sustaining power. There was revival when I was surrounded by like-minded people who loved God. Church attendance was crucial to my spiritual growth and empowered my prayer life to remain faithful and patient. Worship in a community of believers gave me strength for another week.
I also discovered support in the midst of a woman’s bible study. There I found many kindred souls who were on the same road as I. They were struggling with the same things. I found helpful suggestions and friendship.
God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." Hebrews 13:5.
I cling to this promise during those tumultuous moments when faith becomes a controversy in our marriage but I know that I am not alone. I will never be alone.
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