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Prince Jesus Sings

My friends, we are drawing to a close of this story. Although I’m feeling like I’m just getting started. It’s as if a bright door with brilliant light has opened…

image from www.spirituallyunequalmarriage.comMy friends, we are drawing to a close of this story.
Although I’m feeling like I’m just getting started. It’s as if a bright door
with brilliant light has opened before me and it beckons. It’s so bright that I can’t
see past the door frame but I know something warm, good and holy waits inside.
I’m filled with trepidation and yet my soul is compelled, drawn to allow this
Prince Jesus to summon me further into His Kingdom. 

It’s been three weeks tomorrow since I met this Prince and
our new and different love affair is only beginning. I remain in awe. I'm filled with a holy fear and reverence and
also I know I'm in over my head with this King who loves tenderly and woos me unto
Himself. 

And what does that look like? 

Well right now I can only give you a simple story.

On the
Monday following my experience in the healing rooms, I’m at home and I wake
early. I shuffle out to the coffee maker, scoop up my Bible like every other
morning and sit in the family room to read and pray. It’s moments like this
that life returns to normal and it’s routine and you fear that you will lose
what God gave you over the past four days. Because I’m back in my home and I’m
still married to an unbelieving man. I have dishes to do. Errands to run and
the dog wants his breakfast. Nominal, ordinary, everyday stuff. 

Yes, two days ago I had a life-altering encounter with the
Most High, The Prince of Peace. 

How do I move forward? How can I proceed with such a change
in my heart and soul? I know most of us have lived in this very place. We
return home from a retreat, a mountain top experience, and as much as we
experienced and changed, “real” life awaits. The enemy is prowling just waiting
for a moment to destroy our newly found hope and joy. Can anyone relate? 

Well, I have more to say about that later but let me take
you back to this Monday morning. I’m sitting in the family room. I am so hungry
for God that I just remember praying, “I’m hungry for you Dad. I just want your
heart. I want more of you. I want all of you Prince Jesus. Fill me with your
Spirit. And Dad, give me more love. More love to give you and more love to give
to people.” 

I close my Bible. I shuffle back to the kitchen, feed the
dog, the fish and head to the bedroom. I change into my walking clothes and I
drive out to my walk-n-pray wilderness. I turn on my music and begin to walk still
marveling over all that has transpired. And also asking Jesus to come and woo
me, all the while wondering what in the world will that look like. What does
that even mean? 

I had walked about 20 minutes and as an old familiar song,
one of my favorite worship songs ended, I stopped singing out loud, waiting for
the next song to queue. It was a fairly new song in my playlist. It was Your
Voice by Kim Walker-Smith & Skyler Smith. I began to sing along as I walked
briskly down the vineyard-lined, country road. I sang the lyrics in worship
while thinking about this Prince who galloped into my life two days earlier. And as
I mulled the words of this song over in my head, THAT IS WHEN IT HAPPENED. 

I was singing:

There
is no greater need
You
make my life complete
You
set me free

Your
voice alive in me
The
sound of victory
You
speak to me

Your
voice is the light 
Shining
through the doorway
Of my
heart and comes alive
When
You speak into me

You're
my life
You're
my life
You're
my life
You're
my life

And as
I hit the chorus of, “You’re my life. You’re my life.” I heard distinctly the
voice of Jesus speak to me and he said, “No Lynn. You are not singing these
words to me. (Don’t you get it) I’m the one singing these words to you.” 

Yes, you guessed it. Blubbering ensued. Again!

Wait a minute. Jesus is singing to me….. Your voice is the
light shining through the doorway of my heart and comes alive when you speak
into me.  You’re my life. You’re my life……. 

Gulp. I’m still emotional typing this three weeks later. 

Well to say a certain 5’4″ blonde girl was astonished is an understatement.
I don’t think I could do anything else the rest of the walk but just receive
this love that Jesus poured upon me whether I was ready or not. 

I arrived home. And what is a girl to do when she is being
pursued? She calls her girlfriend, her BFF. Yep, Thank God Dineen is on speed
dial. I explained to her what had just happened to me on the walk and she
replies: 

“Oh Lynn, your being wooed.” 

Double gulp! I didn’t even realize. Thank goodness for girlfriends who help dull ones like me, figure
things out! Sheesh!!! 

More crying. Sniffle, sniffle. More awe. More love….. More. 

I just want more. 

As I leave this post today, I just can’t get out of my mind
what was said at the conference: Bobby Conner said that God is wanting His
people to embrace THE AWE OF GOD. So I’m certainly on this path. I’ve never understood
the awe of God, His Son, Prince Jesus, of the Holy Spirit as I do today. 

And as I leave you today, I’m asking that every single person
who reads this will receive an encounter with the Prince and that you will
fully experience the awe of being the bride of the Most High King. 

Prince Jesus, woo my friends, this SUMite family. The Bride
adores you. Reveal Yourself to all of us in supernatural encounters that leave
us wrecked, changed forever. We ask to help us embrace the awe of your power and love.
Teach us, grant us wisdom and understanding. Make in us a people that are
worthy, a people of maturity and purity. Fill us with your love. Prince, we
want more. We want more. We want you. We want your heart. This is our plea for
all of our lives. Amen. 

See you next time as I have two remaining posts that are part
of this series. However, there is so much more going on in this community that
I will likely have other stuff interspersed. 

I love you my friends… my family. I carry you in my heart. 

This entire story is my testimony and now I anoint it and
pass it along to you that you may partake of it, receive it and may it manifest
in your life.

Revelations 12:11 And they overcame him by the blood of the
Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto
the death.

 


White Open Door

Will you walk through this door with me?

"Image courtesy of ponsulak, FreeDigitalPhotos.net".

 

Comments

44 responses

  1. Lynette D Avatar
    Lynette D

    I have felt that awe of God…felt His love all over me. But it has been a while since I have had that feeling. I want to walk in that everyday. Just to feel that confidence of being His bride. I realize I still have a wall around my heart for some reason. I know though that He is the only one who can help me break it down.

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  2. Jen Avatar
    Jen

    Amen, Amen!!
    Oh that feeling when you JUST KNOW that you are surrounded by God’s Love, that AWE is so….I can’t even put it into words…and then yes, life gets moving again, day to day stuff happens. Lately I keep seeing/hearing “Be Still and KNOW that I am God” … How incredible is our God to LOVE us so much….to pursue us!
    Praying along with you Lynn, for this community, for walls to begin being torn down, the ones we have (that we know about and that we do not), for believers to unite and LOVE this world, for God to show up in ways that we can’t help but to be AWE-struck. In Jesus powerful name!! Amen!
    Thank you for your testimony xoxox

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  3. Martha Bush Avatar
    Martha Bush

    Lynette, your statement “I realize I still have a wall around my heart for some reason” caught my eye, mainly because I went through an experience about two months ago with THE WALL. A circumstance had become heated with you know who, and the next day on a post by Dineen, she talked about shoring up the weak areas of our heart and life. The word, “shore up” got my attention.
    Funny thing was my husband, you know the one I had had a heated circumstance with, actually explained the word shore-up to me in a way that I understood it as it pertained to my heart. “Remember, when we lived in New Orleans, and the levi broke during a flood, and the city put sandbags all up and down the river to keep the homes from being flooded? That is shoring -up!”
    My light bulb moment. I knew I had to find out where the break,was in my heart, and shore it up to keep the flood waters of a cold heart from continuing as Dineen had written about. I don’t know why God used that little word to get my attention, but it did. Whatever, it takes! Hope this helps.

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  4. Lynette D Avatar
    Lynette D

    Thanks Martha. I did the same with the study on shoring up our walls. I know there are areas I need to protect, but there are areas we need to be vulnerable to also. I struggle with the vulnerable part.

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  5. Carie Rolls Avatar
    Carie Rolls

    Oh Lynn, I’m crying with you. I so want more! I will walk through that door with you sister! I love you. I love this community. Praying the King of Kings knocks our socks off today!

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  6. Gillian Avatar
    Gillian

    How can I proceed with such a change in my heart and soul? I know most of us have lived in this very place. We return home from a retreat, a mountain top experience, and as much as we experienced and changed, “real” life awaits. The enemy is prowling just waiting for a moment to destroy our newly found hope and joy. Can anyone relate?
    Oh yes, definitely! And that’s so beautiful about prince Jesus, I had to dig out my notes but I had something similar happen as He surprised me by speaking words of love over me after I had been singing too!
    Can never have too much Jesus love, more Prince Jesus, we want more!

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  7. Heidi Avatar
    Heidi

    Ya know, I just need to grab a box of kleenex before I even sit down to open up this site. Lynn redaing the words Jesus spoke to you and listening to the words he sang to you instantly brought me to tears. I think sometimes I get so wrapped up into trying to be the good christian girl and failing sometimes(alot of the time), trying to catch up on all the lost time I spent trying to do things my way, putting God on the back burner, reading the bible, praying etc etc etc because God is so important to me, I love him sooooo much I just want to feel worthy. I have completely lost sight of how much He is sooooo in love with me, soooooo excited to hear from me, and so delighted in my presence too. Its just hard for me to think in those terms He is King, He is Ruler, He is the great I Am…..how can this be that he loves me like this, I am just this little messed up girl trying to find her way back to her Father……I’m not sure Lynn but I think the message I am getting out of this is…God is trying to tell me to just slow down to quit scrambling for His love and to just let Him love me because He already does MADLY, and He always has! I know lots of rambiling, trying to type my emotions as fast as they came LOL. I feel God is also trying to send a message through you to the Sumites, He sees all we are doing and just wants us to REALIZE he gets giddy with excitment at the sound of our voices, we smile He smiles, we laugh He laughs and that when we speak of Him and especially when we speak to Him he is jumping up and down with excitement smiling hugely like a little kid at Christmas “yipee, yipee!” Love you all have a Son-shiney day!

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  8. Heidi Avatar
    Heidi

    I agree Gill, everytime that Mt Top experience comes along its seems Im scurrying to grab a hold of that preverberal string on the balloon that’s getting away.

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  9. Joanne Avatar
    Joanne

    Then those vulnerable areas are the ones that may be needed to mend Lynette?

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  10. Joanne Avatar
    Joanne

    p.s. I can’t WAIT to WITNESS your BREAKTHROUGH! It’s COMING LYNETTE!

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  11. Joanne Avatar
    Joanne

    HEIDI! THAT’S IT! THAT IS WHAT I AM EXPERIENCING NOW!!!
    LYNN! LET DOWN! YES! Felt that after a ROCKIN’ CHRISTIAN CONCERT!
    Heidi quote: I feel God is also trying to send a message through you to the Sumites, He sees all we are doing and just wants us to REALIZE he gets giddy with excitement at the sound of our voices, we smile He smiles, we laugh He laughs and that when we speak of Him and especially when we speak to Him he is jumping up and down with excitement smiling hugely like a little kid at Christmas!
    I LAUGHED OUT LOUD cuz I SO. GET. THIS.
    p.s. If anyone is on Facebook PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE check out the photo Sumite Gillian took in Nova Scotia ON Canada that Heidi in Las Vegas? U.S. SPOKE God’s meaning into. Relates to what she says here!

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  12. Joanne Avatar
    Joanne

    Lynn! I CANNOT EVEN begin to describe what WALKING THROUGH THE DOOR means to me. GASP! SOB! VIBRATE!…..WAITING FOR THE DAY!
    Yes Lord. HERE I AM!

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  13. Julianne Avatar
    Julianne

    Lyn I so relate to the coming back to reality thing. But I’ll be honest I really struggle with the wooing thing – it just seems so wierd – and how do the men deal with that – do they want to be wooed by another man albeit our God’s son? Truly I’m wanting to understand this – I know I can relate to the Abba Father relationship – but putting myself in a marriage/ romantic relationship with Jesus stretches me – I will have to read more scripture on this maybe. It’s actually something I’ve thought about before – maybe it’s the result of being part of a carnal world but it seems ‘wrong’ for me to think of Jesus in this way. Can anybody relate? I’m hoping what I’m saying is not offensive or a downer because I don’t mean it that way – I honestly would love to work this out! I’d love to hear a man’s perspective as well?

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  14. Dianne Raco Avatar
    Dianne Raco

    Thank you Heidi what a beautiful picture you have painted in me.i want to be wooed and I want to know it. I want to clearly hear Prince Jesus’ love song. Have been feeling lately like I am a free person still locked in a prison and I know that it is only His Voice that can break the bonds that are keeping me captive xx. I’m so thankful that The Holy Spirit led me to this community it truly is so encouraging. Thank you Lynn and Dineen for sharing your testimonies with us all – it is so exciting to be placed here for such a time as this and yes I agree we are on the brink of being privileged enough to witness and experience such great miracles.

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  15. Denise Avatar
    Denise

    Julianne
    I have been awed by what happened to Lynn and started to think…I want the same thing. But then I realized, that is what the Father has for Lynn. My experience will be different and yours will be too. As we stop and let Him speak to us He will take us where He wants us to go and that will be different for each of us. The Lord very clearly spoke to me a long time ago…I have so much more for you my daughter. I think that is for everyone…we just need to rest in Him and let Him show us what He has for us, not for what He has for someone else.

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  16. Pat Avatar
    Pat

    Lynn, your heart is so matching mine. I love how you say I want more of you Abba I need more of Jesus and his GREAT LOVE to be pour into my life not only so I can taste it know it and feel it!!!! So in return I can pass that on that is what changes lives. I am left speechless and just want to process these post. Lots of hugs going your way. :)) have a blessed weekend

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  17. Teresa T Avatar
    Teresa T

    I think Denise is onto something. We each have our own skills, gifts, and experiences. God made us uniquely and will communicate with us in personal ways. I often feel very peaceful when I feel His presence.
    The church is the bride of Christ. You are part of that love and protection.

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  18. Sallyvasquez9@gmail.com Avatar
    Sallyvasquez9@gmail.com

    Awesome testimony!!! God is so mighty.

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  19. Carolyn Avatar
    Carolyn

    OH Lynn what a great testimony to share!! I love it!! And it makes me anxious for my quiet time !! God is always there for us, waiting for us to ask for more of him and HE is so willing to woo us and pour out HIS love !! Come Lord Jesus Come!!

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  20. Heidi Avatar
    Heidi

    Your welcome, Dianne but being that I prayed before commenting the thanks goes to the Spirit….Sounds like He IS speaking to you! 🙂

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  21. Heidi Avatar
    Heidi

    Joanne, funny how the words of Lynn has brought these thoughts to the surface huh? Ya think your all alone about how you feel about something then BAM there it is suddenly we all are on common ground…. CONNECT!!! (Love that about the SUMS). Pretty cool too to know that God gets more excited about our presence than us about His, ie. the song He sang to Lynn…..Awesome!!!!!
    PS
    Gill’s Picture is a perfect post for a picture here for the current topic right?

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  22. Julianne Avatar
    Julianne

    Thank you Denise and Teresa for your loving and understanding responses – and yes what you’re saying about being uniquely created and therefore will have unique experiences makes perfect sense – it takes the pressure off and allows us to celebrate each other’s experiences without wondering why it doesn’t either happen to us or doesn’t make us feel the same way. I like the way He reveals things to me ( though sometimes not the process!). And yes peace is a big part of it. Maybe I’m hardened to romance and that’s a wall to be broken down as well. But His timing is perfect and I’m happy to let Him deal with that! Thankyou and thank you Lyn for sharing your journey so generously!

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  23. Heidi Avatar
    Heidi

    It is something that causes a un-easyness in me as well, I do know that He feels betrothed to us such as He is in me and I am in Him. When we get married the Bible says “the two shall become one”. Im thinking a heavenly marriage is a perfect marriage saying that there is no such thing on earth, but He TRULY loves us unconditionaly, and TRULY wants the best for us. Also NO deeper love exists…..so yes it is a marriage but not one we can fully understand this side of heaven. Julianne don’t feel bad your not alone, this is hard for us earthlings to comprehend 🙂 Lets face it if our husbands loved us this much (christian or not) our heads would be spining and our feet would never touch the ground LOL!

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  24. Ian Avatar
    Ian

    Wow, incredible testimony Lynn. And thank you for sharing it with us and providing such a powerful witness and prayers for us too.
    Love that photo of the door … I see us all walking hand in hand through it … to a feast. Our Prince is celebrating us with His angels as they wait on us with a scrumptious feast that we’ve never experienced before. I’m in awe. Wow. Jesus is so cool.

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  25. Heidi Avatar
    Heidi

    I must clarify though, by un-easy I mean that scared yet excited feeling of the unknown, know what I mean?

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  26. Alice Avatar
    Alice

    What a journey our Lord is taking us on! Your story is opening my heart to a whole new form of relationship with Jesus. After reading your last post I felt a stirring in my heart to open my Bible to Psalm 45, not a Psalm I’m familiar with. And I felt like I was reading a love letter from God, straight to my heart. Here is God calling me a royal, and saying “For your royal husband delights in your beauty; honor him, for he is your lord.” (verse 11)
    I really felt the power of the Holy Spirit as I read those words! Thank you for sharing your heart so that Jesus can reach our hearts as a result. I would never have considered those words were for me! It’s amazing how God reveals himself.

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  27. Teresa T Avatar
    Teresa T

    I understand we won’t actually be married in heaven, as individuals. There are several passages like this one.
    Mark 12:25
    25 For when they rise from the dead, they neither marry nor are given in marriage but are like angels in heaven.
    I assume this is because all our needs will be met in heaven and we won’t need the physical aspect to procreate. Your comment just brought this verse to mind. Hat do you think?

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  28. Heidi Avatar
    Heidi

    I agree T, I guess what I meant was it is a hard metaphor to understand because this marriage we are speaking of is a heavenly marriage but one we experience here. His love we experience is explained to us as a marriage but only as a metaphor not an atcual marriage, this is my understanding. Hosea 2:19,20 And I will make you my promised bride forever. I will be good and fair; I will show you my love and mercy.
    20 I will be true to you as my promised bride, and you will know the Lord.

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  29. Teresa T Avatar
    Teresa T

    I love scripture. It can be simple and straight forward. You can also ponder it for a life time with layers of meaning and new understanding. Thanks for exploring this deeper with me.

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  30. Lynn Avatar
    Lynn

    Lord, Holy Father,
    I ask this hour that you would reveal yourself in a new way to Lynette. That you would would reveal to her why she is still struggling. Help her to embrace what you show her and move her forward in her love relationship for you. In King Jesus name. Amen

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  31. Lynn Avatar
    Lynn

    Jen,
    I am repeating and echoing every word here. Amen. Lord Jesus. AMEN

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  32. Lynn Avatar
    Lynn

    Carie,
    Our God LOVES to answer prayers like this. You are well on your way. It’s a long journey but its worth everything. Love you girl.

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  33. Lynn Avatar
    Lynn

    Amen Gill. Heart you girl.

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  34. Lynn Avatar
    Lynn

    Heidi,
    I adore you. Girl, sometimes a Kleenex moment is a good thing. I pray He overwhelms you with love. As I was reading your comment again, I was impressed to give you these words from our Lord.
    Let the king be enthralled by your beauty; honor him, for he is your lord.
    He is ENTHRALLED by you. Absolutely and wholly..

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  35. Lynn Avatar
    Lynn

    Joanne,
    this scripture verse is for you too: Let the king be enthralled by your beauty; honor him, for he is your lord.
    And I saw the photo…. AWE!!!!!!!

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  36. Lynn Avatar
    Lynn

    I’m with you girl…gasp, sob, vibrate…. repeat. AMEN.
    The Spirit and the Bride say, “Come. Come Lord Jesus, Come.”

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  37. Lynn Avatar
    Lynn

    Hi Julianne,
    Girl, it’s completely normal to wrestle with feeling and thinking about Jesus this way. I was completely freaked out about being wooed. I mean really freaked out. If it hadn’t happened to me personally, I may have never understood it. However, it’s about intimacy and trust. And I am only retelling my story as it happened to me. Jesus needed to come to me this way as it was something I needed to move into a deeper Awe, understanding and intimacy.
    Our God appeals to people in different ways. And if there is a need in you that will allow God to bring more intimacy into your life, He will appeal and work in the way that best communicates to you.
    As far as men.. Yes, it’s weird to think in these terms as a bride. So, I asked God about that and a few days following my encounter, Christ showed me what it looks like for a man to inter into that kind of intimate relationships. A manly and strong relationship with Jesus. I will be posted about that sometime this month. Stay tuned. Pray, and ask Jesus, to speak to you in a way that you need.
    I really appreciate that you shared your thoughts as it is likely that others are feeling the same way and it allows me to be sensitive to that. Thank you. Love you my friend. Lynn

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  38. Lynn Avatar
    Lynn

    Well said Denise. AMEN

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  39. Lynn Avatar
    Lynn

    Pat,
    This is the song the Lord impressed upon me for you.
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JoC1ec-lYps

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  40. Lynn Avatar
    Lynn

    Lord,
    Release all you have for Sally and astonish her this very day. In King Jesus name. AMEN

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  41. Lynn Avatar
    Lynn

    Revelation 22:17
    King James Version (KJV)
    17 And the Spirit and the bride say, Come. And let him that heareth say, Come. And let him that is athirst come. And whosoever will, let him take the water of life freely.

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  42. Lynn Avatar
    Lynn

    Ian,
    I can’t wait to share what I see for you. You sit at the table with Jesus. You are fully empowered, decorated as a general… I have more about this in a future post.
    It’s astonishing.
    And I am there walking with you through that door. THRILLING…

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  43. Lynn Avatar
    Lynn

    I just had to go and read this passage and share it here.
    GLORIOUS. Thank you my friend. Hugs.
    1 My heart is stirred by a noble theme
    as I recite my verses for the king;
    my tongue is the pen of a skillful writer.
    2 You are the most excellent of men
    and your lips have been anointed with grace,
    since God has blessed you forever.
    3 Gird your sword on your side, you mighty one;
    clothe yourself with splendor and majesty.
    4 In your majesty ride forth victoriously
    in the cause of truth, humility and justice;
    let your right hand achieve awesome deeds.
    5 Let your sharp arrows pierce the hearts of the king’s enemies;
    let the nations fall beneath your feet.
    6 Your throne, O God,[c] will last for ever and ever;
    a scepter of justice will be the scepter of your kingdom.
    7 You love righteousness and hate wickedness;
    therefore God, your God, has set you above your companions
    by anointing you with the oil of joy.
    8 All your robes are fragrant with myrrh and aloes and cassia;
    from palaces adorned with ivory
    the music of the strings makes you glad.
    9 Daughters of kings are among your honored women;
    at your right hand is the royal bride in gold of Ophir.
    10 Listen, daughter, and pay careful attention:
    Forget your people and your father’s house.
    11 Let the king be enthralled by your beauty;
    honor him, for he is your lord.
    12 The city of Tyre will come with a gift,[d]
    people of wealth will seek your favor.
    13 All glorious is the princess within her chamber;
    her gown is interwoven with gold.
    14 In embroidered garments she is led to the king;
    her virgin companions follow her-
    those brought to be with her.
    15 Led in with joy and gladness,
    they enter the palace of the king.
    16 Your sons will take the place of your fathers;
    you will make them princes throughout the land.
    17 I will perpetuate your memory through all generations;
    therefore the nations will praise you for ever and ever.

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  44. Heidi Avatar
    Heidi

    Enthralled? Its been so long since I heard that word….I had to look it up doubting my recall of the definition, hmmm nope it was as I remembered. Wow, feeling warm and fuzzy 🙂 Love you Lynn, Love you Father!

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